I used to really like my Mum, but nothing I ever do is good enough for her anymore and I don’t know what I’ve done that has made her so angry at me all the time. She’s not angry with anyone else, like she is with me.
When I was in high school she pushed and pushed for me to finish school and go to uni because she never did, even though it wasn’t what I wanted at the time. And now that I have finally found something that I am actually interested in she’s not even interested.
She doesn’t even pretend to be interested when I’ve come across something that has really excited me, all she seems to be worried about is how much longer til I leave.
And I really wish I could leave. I wish I could afford to move out of home. Or had someone to move out with. Nothing would make me happier. And once I was gone I would never come back. Because it’s shit feeling like this all the time.
It’s a really shitty feeling when someone who is supposed to care and be interested in you. I don’t care if she isn’t interested in what I’m doing, but she isn’t interested in me. At all. And apparently it’s my fault. But I don’t know what it is that I’ve done.
And she just yells all the time, but she doesn’t actually say why it is she is yelling at me. She just yells and tells me that it’s my fault and I should not be like this all the time. And I just don’t get it.
I used to really like my Mum. But I don’t anymore.